Susy's Zucchini Bread

Nothing profound to offer today as a major migraine has entered the upper peninsula....the good smells of home baking and cooking are always good for something, and lift the spirits.  Here's my contribution to the effort:

Susy's Zucchini Bread

3 large eggs
1 C (240 ml) canola oil
2 C (1 1/2 medium zucchini) grated zucchini
3 tsp (15 ml) vanilla extract
1/2 C (120 ml) honey
1/2 C (120 ml) Agava Nectar

1/2 tsp (2.5 mg)ground cloves
3 tsp (15 mg)cinnamon
3 C (360 mg) unbleached flour
1 tsp (5 mg)baking soda
1/2 tsp (2.5 mg)baking powder

1/2 C (75 mg) - finely chopped pecans

Preheat oven to 350F (175 C) Beat wet ingredients in a bowl until light yellow and foamy. (Adding zucchini last). Mix dry ingredients in separate bowl and gradually add to the first bowl and blend well. Coat bread pan with nonstick spray. Pour in batter and level out with spoon. Bake at 350 (175C) for about 1 hour until done.

Cleaning your psychic closet

One of my goals for the rest of the year is to become more organized. For someone with the ADHD personality, organization is an arduous task to begin with.  For someone who is trying to move forward with his or her life, to leave the past in the past so they can live in the present it can be an emotional undertaking.

I was faced with tossing items that belonged to someone that was a part of my life some time ago. I had started on this before but couldn't bring myself to separate for the things that he had left behind. While sorting through the items today, I realized that instead of being deeply distraught, like I was the first time I tried to clean the items from my home, I felt relieved.

I am a firm believer in making sure that you are in the right time and right psychic space to accomplish these sorts of tasks. It takes a balanced view to keep things that are special to you, to toss things that no longer have meaning. When you are an emotional train wreck, it is easy to rid your home of any trace of someone's presence, whether they left under their own powers or passed away. The temptation, for example, to get rid of every shred of evidence while in a fit of rage, leaving a smoldering trail of photographs, might come back to haunt you in the future.

What I am noticing as I am going through this, as I am evaluating other items of clutter, is that one of the reasons I hang on is the feeling that I am somehow responsible for items of little monetary value left behind. These can be replaced fairly easily.  As I am clearing out the rubble, ridding my life of all the weight, I am realizing how much psychic space is opening up in front of me.

Through my commitment to visualize what I would like to attract into my life, I am able to conceive how the things I am clearing are creating a space in my life that can be fulfilling and content with the things that I want.  That it no longer holds power over me - that fear has left me.  I feel myself becoming oddly excited at the prospect of undertaking new endeavors, new avenues that were muddled by the endless clutter and debris of a former life I no longer need to live.

The only way that I find I can go on with life is to truly let go, to remove things that no longer have value and things that theoretically should not hold any power over me. To throw some of the holding-on-caution to the wind.  To create a sacred space where new items can be manifested and clear thinking becomes the status quo.